Secret Life...

The res a reason why its called the secret life. Cause everyone does have 3 lives..
Sometimes the secret life a person has can ruin there private life and public life.
Secret lives are meant to stay hidden even to those you trust the most. You may be looked at differently and thought of in a different way.
But what do you do when your secret life is now out in the open and has been found out?
What do you when your secret life now interferes with your normal life?
When now everything clashes?
Theres no hiding or running. Theres no avoiding it now. You just have to deal.
Yes that secret life was so bad that you couldn't even tell the ones you loved about it. It was shameful and disappointing. That secret life destroyed you on the inside. That secret life has burdened you. Leaving you with nothing but emotionally scars that will not go away..
But yet now you feel sort of relived in knowing its not a secret anymore. Sort of relived that you have it off your chest. But now that its out in the open you feel worse. Ashamed.
So which was better not knowing about the secret life ?
VS.
Knowing about the secret life?
If you ask me I say it was better not knowing cause the things that are running in your mind wouldn't be there. The things that you are not thinking now you would not be thinking them.
But I just hope you know even in living that life I love you with all my heart. Doesn't matter what I do and how I do it at the end of the day my heart will always belong to you and I will always love you and be in love with you.